I’m a whys man. Here’s why:
I decided to just stay home this Lent of 2015. So I, my dear wife, and kids just shared precious times together watching TV programs and movies. I watched Eat Bulaga’s Lenten presentations which I had enjoyed years back. But this Lent I was a bit frustrated by some of their stories, especially those that seemed to support immoral issues. What I enjoyed a bit was “Lukso ng Dugo” where a poor adopted little girl was cruelly treated by her aunt at first, largely due to her poor family background. But after she proved to be a really good girl (after lots of difficulties) the aunt changed mind and heart and began loving the little kid.
It was a simple story but I appreciated it better than the others. I especially liked the line the little girl said: “If God really loves us, why does he allow misfortune?” It was said not out of rebelliousness or discontentment but wonder–which I often hear myself ask in tough times. Actually, I know why, but at times I still ask nonetheless. Sometimes simple and obvious questions like that help you see deeper into the obvious. The obvious is often like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. You need to probe Hyde to know more of Jekyll, and vice versa.
Another Eat Bulaga drama story was about a dedicated teacher and a stubborn pupil who determined to finish his studies despite the odds. The teacher even shelled out his own wee savings to save the pupil from near death, later almost ending up dead himself when he could not afford his own hospitalization when he was suffering a severe ailment. The pupil, out of love for his teacher, organized a fund raising campaign to shoulder the hospital expense of the ailing teacher. And then everything went well in the end.
Simple yet inspiring. They don’t answer your whys in life, but they help you ponder on them clearly and ask deeper whys in the process. I need breaks like this–relaxing vacations spent for getting a parallax view of life so I can start a new set of soul-search from a different angle. Sometimes I just laugh silently when I see how I seek for answers I already know. It’s a fact of life–most answers only prod you to ask more because in fact, most answers are questions, and most questions are answers.
Some religious folks tell you to stop asking the whys and just believe. But whys are part of deep belief. Literary portions of the Old Testament are full of queries on life directed to God. Practical folks who just play with numbers and collect trophies of achievements don’t bother with the whys of life as King Saul did, but Job, the Psalmist, Jeremiah, and Isaiah dedicated a huge portion of their lives to it. It so happens God gave me a heart after God’s own heart and which often spends time ruminating on the whys.
To others, it’s plain waste of time, as probably the Eat Bulaga stories mentioned above had very simple and uninteresting plots. But one thing I learned from God’s Word–deep heavenly things are seen only with a pure, simple heart. Once you learn this, you prefer simple daily life to ponder the whys in your mind with.